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This post, my mother posted today.. Seeing it broke my heart. However, this day next week will be my biggest brother Daniel’s fifth year in heaven; five years ago on June 07, 2007 God decided he had something better planned for my eldest brother. What this big plan is.. I don’t know, nor will I ever know. I also don’t know why God chose him.. Or if I will ever be able to forgive him (I’m trying really hard). These past couple of months have seemed harder than ever dealing with his death, and I am not so sure why. Maybe it is because I never really had a chance to cope with his death and the fact that he is truly gone and there is nothing I can do or say to get him back. I was busy being strong for everyone around me, including my mother.. But I’ve realized that has just brought upon me more pain. I always try and convince myself..”I’m fine.. Always am.” But I’m not fine.. And I owe it to myself to really realize that.

With that being said.. I miss you Daniel.. I really do, more than you could ever imagine.

xox

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